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Im tired.
Theres not much else to say but that
Im tired of crying
Im tired of feeling alone
Im tired of everyone being against me
Im tired of making mistakes
Im tired of wanting to start over
Im tired of wanting to die
Im tired of wanting to live
Im tired of being tired.

Everyday its the same routine, I smile
I smile not just because I cant show anybody what I really feel but also because I want to believe its real
Its better to be positive until it all comes crashing down
They got me this far, they are my savior
They make me want to live
They saved my life.

They are creatures in my head
They are only real to me
I want them
I want them to save me.

They make me want to live because I’m scared to lose them
I cant lose them.

Im so tired.
I know I probably shouldn't have written this...I don't like to post personal things, but I needed to get this out.
If you find you can relate to this then just know that your not alone

A message to everyone: Find your savior, even if they're not real. They could be the your last hope.
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Terrafirma16 Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013
Thanks for writing this, it reminds me I'm not the only one that feels this way. Stay strong.
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TornadoWraith88 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013
I'm tired
I'm tired of people who can't spell "I'm"
sorry
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I've tried putting a description to this feeling. I've tried going through it step by step to perhaps begin to fathom where it came from, and how I could possibly relieve myself of its heavy weight. When trying to explain it to someone, however, all I could say was "I'm just so tired." It didn't seem enough, it didn't seem to carry the weight I was feeling, and it didn't really seem to make sense to them. This poem, however, made perfect sense; you gave a description to it... one that I could painfully relate to in clarity. There is so much I want to say to you, though I've never known you.... there is much I want to ask in the hopes someone of understanding could provide the answers others couldn't. However... I think this exhaustion is something we have to figure out on our own; otherwise, I don't think we can learn from it as efficiently as there is the potential to, if that makes sense.

I hope you feel better after letting this out, and I hope you can continue with your positivity. I've honestly found that to be a fairly good retreat from the exhaustion... but... it seems once you've portrayed yourself as hopeful and positive, no one really takes you seriously when you do stumble across those things that provoke sorrowful changes. It's frustrating... but as you said: if we all find something to help us with resolve, we can usually get through it. It just takes time, patience, and a strong will to live.... or at least in my opinion.

Thanks for writing this: it lifted a tiny weight inside me. I thought it was truly powerful and well written in its raw intensity. I hope you continue to write; it can definitely serve as the perfect outlet for such emotions.
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Kizin-of-kaplumba Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I'm always saying that I'm tired of being tired, but no one ever understands what I mean, or they just think I'm joking because I'm always smiling. I think that the idea of saviours is hard, because the only people I've found that do understand or take me seriously are those who have gone through it before me. and if a saviour is meant to understand then that means that they've been there, that they are just as damaged as I am. I dont think I have the strength to hold someone else up when it's all I can do to keep standing.
But yeah, I know how it feels to simply be tired of being tired.
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StarburstNinja Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
A savior to me isn't someone who really "saves" you or understands. It's someone (or something) that gives you the will to keep going. Mine happens to be made up, i don't like the idea of relying on someone. Sometimes the will to go go is the most important thing you can give someone. Also it's really nice to know i'm not the only one whos just tired of being tired.
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Kizin-of-kaplumba Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I think a saviour becomes whatever you need it to be, and I wasn't questioning yours, I was just venting I think, about the lack of understanding that's around me.
I also find it comforting to know that I'm not the only one, and I related to the other things you were tired of as well. I guess we're pretty similar in that sense.
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sleepy-kisses Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
*sigh* I know this feeling... :/ You're not alone in this. I'm sure you'll find someone you can rest on, someone real. I reach out a hand if you ever feel like it's too much to handle on your own, just message me ^^ Don't give up hope, just keep going. It gets better, I swear.
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StarburstNinja Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
i really hope so, thank you for this <3
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sleepy-kisses Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome ^^
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MichaelAtaraxia Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Very well-written thoughts and feelings. I'm impressed.
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